The days that have passed
where I had to interact with persons
with the least qualifications
seems to be a nightmare when
I retrospect.
I give credit to myself
not that I succeeded
but how I co existed
how much I have gained?
Gain in the sense of experience
maintained an equilibrium,
sustained a juxtaposition, made
possible with enormous efforts.
I blame myself all the more
for having lost heavily
monetarily and been a subject
of taunt owing to my passiveness.
Which one is greater? remains
a question. It is all how
one perceives the situation
money or credibility.
Which way does the balance tilt
towards esteem or through
disappointment? I really
do not know.