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A reverie


I ponder.

I deliberate.

I think hard.

This is the question which keeps on nagging me for quiet some time.

I was some body’s child initially.

I am somebody’ else’s  spouse now.

I am  some others parent.

I am someones sibling.

I am tagged to someones twine.

The I ,in me is wriggling.

The I ,in me wishes to escape.

I spend sleepless nights.

My mind is  restless.

The thought is haunting me.

I am unable to find an answer.

I delve deep into  infinity.

I search relentlessly.

I scroll through the pages of Bhagavad Gita.

i find no answer.

My eyes are heavy,

My mind is tired.

My eyes gradually close.

I go into a deep slumber.

May be tomorrow , I will get a reply.

It is hope which sustains mankind.

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All things small and beautiful.


what are small things?

small in size,right.

small in another sense.

guess,got it.

No.

i will tell you.

small is a thing which escapes one’s attention.

bewildered.

Nay.

yes ,very much.

A common incident,

I was boiling milk.

One million times I would have done this chore.

something Unusual happened.

yes ,very unusual,

I cast my eyes on the process.

I stare

I enjoy.

The milk is slowly rising.

 It is coming up.

It is frothing.

it is going to spill over.

I am entranced.

The slow upheaval,

The gradual upsurge,

The slow ebbing.

lovely,

How beautiful it is.

My eyes smother,

My heart pounds.

I beam.,

I swirl,

I mumble,

i cherish,

i am inspired,

I dance in joy.

How did I miss such a magnificent sight?

 A transendental  experience. indeed.

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My teachers


It is nearly thirty two years since I  came out of college.

Oh gosh ! really so long!

How many years since I left the portals of school?

Add another five years.

I go back to my primary schooldays.I recall my teachers who taught me to write and read.Patience was their virtue.

How did they manage?

A child  would be wailing in a corner, another one nodding her head in sleep, yet another tom boy engaged in a fight.

Yet they managed, managed pretty well.

I kneel down in reverence.

In the secondary school, the teachers were tough.

They made us work.

Grammer, theorems,poetry, chemical equations, Boyle’s law, Newton’s law, botanical names, dissection of a frog, history (ancient,medieval,modern,)

geography (we saw countries when David flew in his imagination).,were all dinned into our minds.

They gave us such a foundation ,that made most of us successful..

I should make a special mention of my English teacher,Miss Myrtle.

She spent nearly fifteen minutes of every class,in relating her experience in Europe.

She would begin the class thus “when I went to Europe—-“.

The class chuckled.Annoyed ,she would start shouting.

Her anger brought the best part of her.

Her command of the language was excellent.

Her coaching in grammar  laid a good base for us.,who took English as the main subject in college.

My heart fills with gratitude ,when I think of these  teachers.

My eyes become wet ,when I visualise Miss Myrtle. with her spectacles

I feel she is still staring at me.Her stare comes down . oh, now she smiles benignly.Alas!

She is no more. Let her soul rest in peace.

Usually there should be a difference between a school and a college.

But I found school was far more liberal than college.

we were under the nose of our Principal.

She was a strict disciplinarian.

Her eyes would always follow us.

Here again , I have to make a special remark on my English Professor Miss Gomez

she was honour personified.

She took us to the days of Marlowe, Shakespeare, and Wordsworth.

A face that launched a thousand ships,

Age cannot wither her ,

nor customs stale her infinite variety,

To be or not to be.

if music be the food of love ,play on.

You too Brutus,

the fever and fret.

Miles to go before I sleep,

resound and reverberate .

Miss Gomez , I salute  you.

Tears trickle down.

My eyes are misty.

Endharo mahanuba! says the saint Thiagarja,

The experience is exuberant..

The exhilaration  is ecstatic

 

I

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Jagadodharana


M.S. Subbulakshmi was a queen of music.

Listen to her.

Her voice mesmerises you.

Her bhava wallows you up.

Listen to her.

The intensity wraps you.

The melody embraces you.

Listen to her.

You become ecstatic.

You experience the transcendental.

Her music is par excellence.

 

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The Executor of a will


I am no great story teller.

The happenings in my life can make a great fiction.

Fictions are transcriptions of real life.

Aroma. fragrance, frescoes are added to make the presentation interesting.

This feature is about the impertinence of a shoddy man-he being the first male child of the family.

No other credit can be attributed to him.

A will was drafted by  family’s lawyer in 1995.

The head of the family, nominated his eldest son  as an executor of the will and registrd it.

The lawyer was a treacherous crafty schemer.

His wily nature and pranks have ruined many a wealthy family.

The father passed away in 1997.

The will clearly states the responsibility of the executor.

The nominated person should relinquish his office as soon as he accomplishes the duties ascertained to him.

But, this particular man,is holding his post for eleven long years.

His siblings are half a century old.

His nephews have crossed the quarter century mark.

He is a primary school drop out.

He lacks prudence.

but swells in arrogance.

He excels in stupidity,

but poses to be as Solomon -the wise.

He s a bundle of contradictions.

He is past 60 now.

But he is mentally immature.

His mental capacity is that of a 8 year old.

An eight year old ‘s mind  would be full of innocence.

His mind is filled with capriciousness.

The solicitors have thrown their towels.

The family is exasperated.

How to turn this man around?

By advice,

by law ,

or ,

by force.

Know not how?

There is a Sanskrit saying

“sama dana ,bedha, dhandam.’

GOD BLESS THE EXECUTOR”

-executing the family -literally, for a decade.

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Pig’s ears and silk purse prices


I was reading William Buiter’s article.

The learned Professor of London school of Economics has commented thus, while speaking on The Federation’s move.

The Fed has bailed out banks, he says, by buying Pig’s ears illiquid assets for silk purse prices.

First, I was amused by the metaphor.

I chuckled.

After long deliberation truth dawned.

The Fed has messed the whole economy.

It is in deep credit crisis.

I recollect Shakespeare’s words.

Never a lender be, nor a borrower,.

I may have gone wrong while quoting.

I am right in disclosing the meaning.

Fed has robbed Peter to pay Paul.

It has made use of the tax payer’s money to feed the ailing banks.

A necessary evil.

My paradigm

Buy ,what you can afford.

Spend ,what is possible.

Lend not.

Borrow not.

If affluent, give away to the needy. 

Mercy is twice blest.

It blesseth the one who gives.

and the one who takes.

Again Shakespeare.

Today ,he keeps on coming.

I know not why?

Perhaps -an apparition.

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Child is the father of man


I have to commit on a project.

This is my own  assignment

When I first conceived the idea , it  had a tremendous potential.

Now,  a month later,it is  slightly  off the mark.

To do or not to do-the famous Hameletian  philosophy  is haunting me.

My sons, were amused to see me in such a dilemma.

One of them said,  Ma, look  at Ratan Tata.

He has acquired Corus, a giant size steel manufacturing company.

Corus is much bigger than TIsco.

Your  acquisition is much smaller than the ongoing one.

Why hesitate? carry on.

He is an equity and corporate correspondent.

The other one said, Mom, if your financial are intact, why bother?

Volatility is prevalent, but it is not going to affect you so badly.

He  oversees corporate lending in a Bank.

The youngest is a dare devil.

Mother , he commands, nothing is going to stop you.

Jump , seize the opportunity ,you will win.

He is an ad man-creative head of  an ad agency

To all their propositions, my husband benignly smiles

He concludes with the adage “child is the father of man “,in your case father of a woman.

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Retrospection


A mind can make a hell out of heaven

And a heaven out of hell.

so quoth Milton.

In  Tamil there is a saying Ennam  pol valvu. which translates as you think your life will be.

A short yet crisp prophecy.

I stand aside and look back .

I muse.What  have I left behind?

I recollect.

My childhood days -total involvement in studies, music. dancing. -knew no wants

My college days-excellence in academics, honed the musical skills, stopped dancing -satisfaction

My early married life-got into a  different environment,  a very young understanding  husband , who taught me  to come to terms with the in laws, birth of children ,dabbled in business-no time to relax-occupied-involvement

My middle age – brought the boys up,they grew up into smart young men,  they won laurels and accolades,thus making me proud.-pride

Tears treckle down.

 Memories gush in

 How did i manage so well ?

How did I emerge out of the trap laid by my kith and kin unscathed.?

I conclude it is my mind,my thought.Milton cannot go wrong.

Beaming , I turn forward.

The cherubic  smiles of my  grand children beckon me.

Life goes on.