I Cry Inside

Going by the word
been my way
all these days,
does cause a strain
when the considerations
take a turn unexpected.

Decision making without
the monetary control
is a struggle definite
putting forward a composure
hard to juxtapose.

This being nothing new to me
all along the procedure
being s, sense a feel
how long one has
to be subservient.

It is almost a lifetime
in my case. The portfolio
seems to reflect idealism
the execution forces
a less to down to earth.

Expensive in a manner,
not materialistic, affecting
the sensibilities. I carry on
without ‘a slight murmur
while I cry inside.