Hard Way.

Things seem to be hard
there is a struggle
an apprehension surfaces
the benefit of doubt arises
will it or will it not?
strains the mind
a suspicion is always there
Is it only for me? I wonder
Why it is always so? I ponder
that is the way the mind works
defeated it feels in a way
pulls on with a hope
succeed or not I know not
have to live till the end
with the thought.