An Attitude Difficile

ideas and ideologies are running me mad.
Ideals and identifications are keeping me sad.
These being a pull down for my performance
I am crawling in snail speed.
The thought of how I am going to cope up
still worsens my applications
as I am an introvert in nature.

Needing space and pace to do things
that too all by myself
refraining others to get into any work
I become unpopular among my friends.
But once I get things accomplished
they would look fine and presentable
appreciated and admired by all.

If am subjected to criticisms
I would set them aside
not touching them for life.
An attitude which causes a pause
and leads to a break in progress.
Know not from where I got it?
and from where i learnt it?